This Straggler Heart

I scream catch up

you have no function

you futz in my chest

a mechanical mess

where is that thirst and yearning

you once tortured me with

I am using you

to keep the time

marching into eternity musically

lonely symphonies of experience

I watch mountains moons and stars

hover like mirrors of inner landscapes

I am keeping all to myself

who will know

this burdensome kernel?

I have carried it

through auspicious wastes

and I have died everywhere

But there

where this heat insists

I am not done

not frozen to the core

But a vibrant

word boy awaiting the voice

I will come to know so well

in all this whole playing the part

that rushed

so recklessly ahead

this straggler heart

The Big O

let us not forget
the universe is a big explosion
counterintuitively gaining
on nothingness all the time
this awareness that is life
into which so much
brings attention to itself
is also thus
and into realms beautific
and brutish
we can emerge
depending on what
we value while
the vast entropy figurates
our deaths